Nadine Coyle has revealed she was “fully in denial” in regards to the graveness of former Ladies Aloud bandmate Sarah Harding’s sickness.
The Londonderry-born singer took half in a charity run in reminiscence of Harding on Sunday.
Coyle and the opposite surviving Ladies Aloud singers Cheryl, Kimberly Walsh and Nicola Roberts joined followers and supporters in Race For Life For Sarah, a 5k run to have a good time Harding's life and lift cash for breast most cancers.
Harding died aged 39 in September after revealing she had breast most cancers which had unfold to different elements of her physique.
Talking on the charity race in London's Hyde Park, Coyle mentioned: "This time final yr we have been truly hanging out … all of us met up final yr. She was there and we have been speaking and he or she did not even appear that sick.
"I used to be in denial your complete time and was the buddy that was 'Oh, it is gonna be all proper', you understand, I used to be fully in denial proper up till the day she handed."
Her comment prompted Roberts to say: "Additionally we have been involved in your denial. Like I feel for me, I felt like I am nervous for you that you just're not so current."
Talking of Harding's "electrical" vitality, Roberts mentioned: "Clearly coming collectively now very often to get issues taking place is unusual as a result of her vitality was so electrical that we're type of... the 4 of us have such a chill...
"Sarah's vitality was like a firework so I really feel like that massive distinction in vitality when she's not there.
"I feel that for us proper now, we do not really feel like Ladies Aloud. We do not really feel like a band with out Sarah. She, like I mentioned simply now, she was such an enormous a part of our vitality that it would not really feel like that."
Roberts, 36, Coyle, 37, and Cheryl donned pink T-shirts with Race for Life wording as they ran collectively in Hyde Park, whereas Walsh, 40, took half remotely as she was not in a position to be a part of them in London.
When the three singers took to the stage in entrance of attendees in Hyde Park, Roberts held her cellphone up and mentioned she couldn't attain Walsh at that second and prompt she is likely to be "warming up" for her personal race.
Cheryl mentioned of Harding's loss of life: "To be sincere, I've by no means skilled or anticipated this grief.
"You already know, I've misplaced grandparents once I was youthful and I misplaced a buddy once I was youthful however nothing like this, the sensation of shock and disbelief and it nonetheless lingers now to be sincere. I nonetheless cannot fairly consider it is actual."
When requested if a Ladies Aloud reunion with out Harding may very well be a risk, Cheryl mentioned: "It hasn't even been a yr. It would not really feel like she's gone in any respect."
The lady band was shaped on TV present Popstars: The Rivals in 2002 and went on to have hit tracks together with Sound Of The Underground and The Promise. They disbanded in 2013 and have all had profitable solo careers in music and TV. Coyle’s debut solo album was referred to as Insatiable and its title monitor was launched in November 2010.
Cheryl additionally mentioned it was nice the surviving Ladies Aloud members may very well be concerned in Race For Life For Sarah, saying: "You're feeling so helpless, you've got by no means felt hopelessness prefer it, it is horrendous.
"So the truth that she had one request that we will fulfil is like nice for us as a result of it simply appears like we're doing one thing.
"We felt like there was nothing we might do for therefore lengthy."
The band's fundraising efforts are to set to conclude with a big gala dinner later within the yr.